Speedtest

Well, short post for My new speedtest siggy, it shows how lag my internet connection is. Simply Cannot make it! F5 How to train my character in MapleSEA, My 2x exp is wasted... Sad...

Feela Like Dying. =x

Dear all, I know that it is almost 2 months since I have updated my blog. My thoughts for today is, I want to die and not to live. I do not have any will to live anymore. Can anyone kill me? Actually my favorite way of dying is Die in my sleep, so I do hope that, I will die in my sleep. Please, let me die in sleep and stay in a Dreamland, a world free of pain.

Time With Your Dearest. =)

Yesterday, I naughty plox, Too miss my dearest, so call him to meet up. Then, as a No.1 Baka, I dunno why in the world did I suggest to ask him to meet me at Orchard, when we are suppose to go CCK... See, that's why I say, I really CMI (Cannot Make It) de. Then My poor Dearest Mush go take Taxi all the way to CCK, just to be on time to meet me and not make me wait... Sobs... I am a lousy GF to him. Then went to My Dearest Ying Ting's House. After a long time, she never have a chance to talk and to meet which is all my fault. =x My ke lian de Dear at her house like very uncomfortable, Sorries dearest.. F4 Around 7pm, My Nightwalk home with him was definitely a treat. I would never forget that walk home together. Somehow, it wasn't as lonely and scaring as it used to be. He was very loving and gave me an ungoing sense of comfort, love and security as well. We would stop along ways to appreciate Nature as well as to spend time with ourselves. We could just stand there hugging each other and hear each other's heart beat. It's a wonderful feeling. We chat alot as well, about our future together, aspirations and so on. We came at this place, where there's a tall lamppost, that attracts many flies flying around. Both of us stop to admire the scene. Its wonderful, I imagine myself looking at fireflies, though they are not. :p Then continue to walk home, I was also very careless and clumsy luhhs, almost fell down into a hole... -.-''' Then embarrassed myself against him... Zzz... Now can agreed that I sucks already? So to sum up about me, I really sucks. We part near my house where he says he wishes to take a taxi home. On one hand, I feel that Taxi is taxing on his budget, because its really expensive for a trip from my place at the west all the way to the east at Tampinese. But, the stronger thought was that, "Come on Jamie, this is really damn selfish of you. He accompanied you the whole day just after school. So he deserve a comfortable trip home to rest. He took care of you and even send euu home. So what's this?" In the end, I agree with him taking a taxi home luhhs, I wish I can pay for his trip..F4 Thanks to my wonderful Dear, for being with when I needed him most. x3Carlton Dear. Then reach home, went to shower after that, I decided to skip dinner. Since I drank bubble tea, guess that spoils my appetite for dinner. =x Then decided to do a bit of studying here and there and going to maple to meet up with friends and others. Need to really apologize to My Kerrin Mei for forgetting to Buy Acash for her and also to reply to Farhan Darling's sms...T.T Then was with Hubby again...F3 Went Papu with him twice using Mama's Bishop, died at the 2 round, at B2, 95%... Due to lagness...-.-''' Then, went to take a nap after that while dear went zaking wif PinkySin's Squad, dear died at B3..T.T No main exp lurrhs...F4 Then JvasAngel Dajie was looking for me. After a long chat, we sort out everything and became Jiemei...F3 Thanks to her, she really nice and Magnanimous, really thank her for it. Then later Car7 came to Joke..F3 Another Maple Joker, second Faddy Daddy and Daniel... F3 Then its me and dear alone together at last. We at FM slack together and chat. Dear so Rou ma worx...F3 Then we from 3am chat till 5 plus. Then finally can go dreamland find him..F3, We married tgt =) Well in conclusion, I love LaoGong Carltonx3 and miss all my friends =) Xiaowei Aiai, I am worried for euu too. =x Please dun be sad.. I sayangx3 Okies, Signing off lerrhs, counting down the days to meet Laogong on Friday. x3

x33 Him, My Love of my Life.

I think that I have fallen in love with him, I see in him, as an honest and kind - hearted a guy. He may not be a hunk, but he is good looking enough for me admire. But, after evaluating myself, I can conclude that I don't deserve him at all. My character may hurt him in the end. I will just standby him and x33 in secret. I think its the second time I have feelings for a guy. To me, my standard to have a married partner is high. May be unreasonable too. I don't want him to gamble, or lead a dishonest life. I don't mind being a submissive wife to him, if he has fulfill all my quotas as a guy I desire. So long he do not break the law, get into trouble of any sorts, I think euu are a great person.
I don't if you look ugly, not rich etc. I WOULD RATHER MARRY THE UGLIEST AND A LOW INTELLECT OR POOREST PERSON THE WHOLE WORLD, so long he's kind at heart and understanding a person. I don't mind giving my life up to marry a handicap and take care of him. But, this dearest person is in perfect health, he fullfil everything I desired for, But I don't deserve him, given my bad temperament and character. to sum up, HE'S TOO GOOD FOR ME. x33

Sick.. :'(

Dear All, This is the third day that I am sick. -.-''' My fever's that high till the antibiotics don't work. On Penicillin as well. Have to be on Ventolin too...-.- I hate having flus, it makes me so frustrated. F4, To all my friends, yes, I MISS YOU ALL LOTS TOO. =)

The Waiting Will Soon Be Over =)

Have been waiting for this day to come, ever since my laptop's sent to repair for about a week, miss it so much. Luckily, no repair cost needed since its still on warranty. My laptop's is coming home tomorrow afternoon, so I am anxiously waiting for it to arrive. PS. Kenny has enlightened me on something today, and he was really kind to have a nice warm greeting!^^ WAITING FOR FRIDAY TO COME AS WELL. New double episo0de of Naruto coming up. Well, there's nothing much to comment, so signing off. See ya all!^^ Back to maple soon I hope and get started on Private Servers, when dear labby is home.

Interesting Quiz

I'll do this very Interesting Quiz as recommended By My Deearest XiaoWei Aiai... =)

1. The person who last tag you is:

Xiaoweix3

2. Your relationship with him/her is:

She's my DEAREST AIAIx3, I treat
her as my dearest sister

3. Your five impression of him/her:

Aiai have always been Friendly,
always Caring, definitely Brave,
She's very Loyal, Extremely Helpful =)

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:

Too many things, but there's an incident, when someone
bullied me, she stood out for me and gave me the best
comfort I ever had. x3WeiAiai


5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:

She asked me to take care and will always be by me.


6. If he/she become your lover, you will:

Can't, she female like me. I wish I am a guy,
maybe can woo her too. :)

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:

Erm, hope she shares more unhappiness for her so I can help her out.
That question should be directed to me instead. How can I improve
for her.


8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:

I HOPE DEFINITELY THAT WILL NEVER
HAPPEN. Or I will die of sadness. :'(


9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:

Maybe I have done something bad to her.

10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is:

Love her with all my heart and always be by her to support her and
take care of her. Because She's my superstar. x3WeiAiai

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:

SHE RAWKS!^^ She's My Dearest Aiaix3

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?:

Well, Jamie sucks to the core. So be damn with her.

13. The characters you love of yourself are:

Nothing. Seriously I sucks in every single
aspect of my life.


14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
Stubborn
Attitude Problem
Stupid
Ugly Looking
Irritating
Never be able to help others
Being Sickening
Hateful
Good For Nothing
Glutton

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:

Heehee, I am not sure of it myself. F3

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING, EUU ALL ROX!^^
LOVE YA ALL! =) Sorry if I have make euu all unhappy.

Note:

I don't 10 people in my BuddyList, so until then, I can't carry on from question 17 onwards.

Reaffirming My Point From The Previous Post.

Well, forget about ranting in my previous post, but my main point has been established since, most importantly to me, the truth is, I WILL NOT RESPECT ANYONE JUST FOR THE SAKE THAT YOU'RE MY ELDER AND OLDER THAN ME, OR THAT YOU'RE RICH OR SO CALL 'AFFLUENT' IN THIS SOCIETY. If you are older than me, so what has it got to do with me? You are just another ordinary humans like myself, only that you live longer then me, richer then it means that you own more worldly posessions then me, thats all. All these do not necessary command respect from me unless you earn it. I don't expect any to respect me as well, its your choice, your freedom, therefore, I do not bother much what you think of me, unless its constructive, then I may change for the better. It may be rude to many older people reading this, but yes, i won't respect you unless you respect yourselves and that you deserve that respect from me. Its the same for everyone including my folks. So what they give birth to me? They are so call my parents, if they don't behave like one, and don't act like one , therefore not worthy to be one. They may argue to the point that they are right in everything they do, this point alone, they lost my respect totally. I don't care what the fish their excuses are. Too bad, I don't respect you, and its your whole damn fault. In the game, MAPLESTORY, its just isn't about the game anymore, its about the people playing as well. Such as a one guy, whose in game name at Cassiopeia world,SABCAL, aka from zZKILLERzZ guild. Well if anyone related to him or know him,sees this, I don't give a damn how you want to defend him. HE'S SIMPLY A DAMN DISGUSTING FREAKING OLD MAN 'ADULT'. He looks like in his mid - forties when I saw him in real life at PC Bunk, well, about him, too a low-life pest like him don't deserve any single respect from me. Well, If I ever see him in real life, I'll be sure to question his mentality state. He may be normal, but his attitude and social behavior or his general behavior needs a good clean up. Someone like him simply don't deserve my respect, unless he change, then till that time he better work to being a better person. My opinion of him won't change unless he himself change. Otherwise SCUMS like him better scram off faraway from me. If he dares step on my toes again, I will make him eat his medicine, thrice the dosage. Well, I when ranting something like this in blog, I have foresaw many negative comments and critical views from people, but I will stay like that. =)

Damn Horrible Day

I know its been a long time since I have came to blog to rant or complain. But this round I have to make my point clear and through here. Yes, I am gonna vent my whole damn frustrations, anger, hatred etc here. There's a warning though, it may be blunt and rude, but I would go ahead with it. Warning: People would cannot stand what I am going to rant here afterwards, if you don't like it, then get your asses off my blog and don't make nonsensical flames to further dampen my mood, seriously I am telling all of you. I am in a hell of a mood, so don't anyone ever test my patience. I'll make your life a hell for you, if you aggravate me further.

Well, first things first, my dear folks at home. WELL, YES ITS THEM, MY FUCKING PARENTS as I put it on my MSN nickname. If they all want their GOD DAMN RESPECT, THEY JOLLY WELL EARN IT. I have enough of it. I am human too, I know what's filial piety, and I DON'T GIVE A HELL DAMN SHIT ABOUT IT OK? Look yourselves into the GOD DAMN MIRROR before using that to threaten me. CURSE ME ALL YOU ALL WANT, I MAKE SURE THAT WILL REBOUND BACK TO YOU ALL. Sorry, my point of view is so call, PARENTS, of these days DO NOT DESERVE MY DAMN RESPECT. IF YOU ARE WANT IT, EARN IT. So what's if you all are parents? I RATHER YOU ALL HAVE NEVER GIVEN BIRTH TO ME, CURSE THE DAY I WAS BEING BROUGHT INTO THIS WORLD BY YOU ALL. SO MUCH FOR ALL YOU'll HAVE DONE YOUR PARTS. By adding misery and pain to my life? I have shut my mouth and anger for so long, I HAVE LOST MY PATIENCE, SINCE YOU ALL HAVE CROSSED MY LIMITS. FINE! I WILL MAKE SURE, I MOVE OUT THE GOD DAMN HOUSE AND FAMILY, ONCE THE TIME IS RIPE. WHEN THAT TIME COMES, NO TURNING BACK AT ALL. I WON'T EVEN POISON MY EYES TO SEE ANY OF YOU EVER AGAIN. Die for all I care.

I shall rant further later on, for now I need a break, I am exploding and not sure how to continue further.

- No Suitable Title -

Actually its an unhappy day, today, Mom was so perky and loud, then was a little irritating. The first thing in the morning that spoils my day, was my sickening stomach, feeling real uncomfortable, so it spoils my motivation for anything. So instead of doing anything, I went straight to the computer before going out, while waiting for Mom. I was so engrossed in listening music that I didn't hear my Mom calling me to leave the house already, before I know it, appear so suddenly and slapped my face. I can't helped being shocked. Then my mood changed 360 degrees. I keep Afking while mapling, so can't earn much mesos today. Didn't do much except for going out do often. Miss all my good friends, hope tommorrow will be a better day. Love ya all!^^ Signing off... =)

Tired, But Felt Great

I have to admit that today has tired me out. Got to go out, help this and that, but its good that there's no nagging, no screaming and shouting at home, just a little squabble here and there with my folks, but all is well and peaceful. Its a rare peaceful day, so I really do appreciate it lots. Did a little homework here and there, some light reading, have a short leisure time of watching shows on the internet. This little bits here and there do sort of slow me down, and its great. I should have gone to Qbox today to settle my hacked account of Maplestory, but time don't allow me to do so. Logged in maple and have a nice chat with my dearest Darlings and Aiais, then Meow Aiai came too...^^ She's nice to tell me, the Blind and Blur Dingbat here that Zakum helmet has 10 slots for scrolling not 15!!! Thanks to Meow Aiai and Joey Dear for confirmation. Really want to thanks those who supported me all the way even though my Account was being hacked. Especially Xiaowei Aiai, Joey Dear, Han Darling, Yuwen Jie jie, Yenn Jie jie, Daphne Aiai, My OffLimits Guildmates and other BLs. My lesson learnt is to remember to rotate my password more frequently. Went out thrice today, but there's once for a rather useful mission, which is to report my Cybertheft to the police, have a 20 mins walk to Bukit Panjang Neighborhood South Police Post to report the loss and hacked account. Sat there and wait for a good 15 mins before a Private rank officer served me. Those 15 mins were, I admit, kinda scary, scared that they will dismiss my case and close it. Well, they did everything to help me, took down my particulars, info about the theft, took my statement, refer my case to CID, and ask about who's involve, example are those who knows my Maple account and password. I apologize to those who I have given your particulars to the police especially to my maple dear, Jorrence, since its fair that I want a fair and thorough investigations carried to find the person who commit the crime and may justice and right be done. I may forgive the hacker, but I cannot forget the incident. The police sirs are really nice people but a little too strict, so there's not much friendly conversations there between me and them. Well, I can't believe that
I HAVE MISSED MY DEAR AIAI'S MAPLE WEDDING. SORRY AIAI... :') ANYWAY CONGRATULATIONS FOR MARRIAGE! MEGA AIAI TOMORROW WHEN I AM ONLINE IN MAPLE. Was actually busy dealing with viruses on my labtop. Sorry! Anyway, it was tired but all felt great. gtg now, sayonara!

Disappointment

Its has been a major disappointment to find out that my Dearest Maple account have been hacked. Well, lets do some simple calculations of how much I have lost. Well, My loss from my xXstarcleric character amounts up to 320 million and the mesos that I have at hand is a total of 21 million plus. My 2 other noob character got hacked as well. each have many godly items in it. So estimated lost in total is roughly about 445 million plus mesos, which in monetary term in real life equals to SGD $445 plus. All I can say is, this hacker is somebody close to me, he knows my password cause I told him, most likely a guy, he is in desperate need of maple money, smart hacker cum a real scary hacker. he dropped my dearest zakum helmet, which comprises of int plus 21, my Buddy List he also wiped out clean and empty, plus, he scolded my good Friend Suxxor and leave guild. I have my suspicions and I believe, he's no ordinary hacker. I found out last night, when my dearest Wei Aiai, was soo good to inform me, so I know of the situation immediately. I was in a calm state, no screaming, nothing, just a big huge disappointment weighing on me. Well, its been a lousy day on a whole, yesterday, plus body's not getting any better, I feel that I gonna be sick anytime. signing off now, now rant again tonight. Sayonara!^^

Busy days ahead.

Well. past three days were like sucky? My time in school were alright, as usual have not much friends and becoming mostly a loner, not sure is it I caught the 'Anti - social' Bug from Vin Gor Gor aka ltzhim whom I've know in maple. Gonna have a group project, and I chose to do it alone, since I can't find a group that I am comfortable with. On Monday, I remember being rather bad to someone by calling her 'shen jing bing' which means crazy, since I feel that at times she seems rather demented. I rather quiet in class, a far cry from being in BPGHS, when I am big and loudmouth student who never stops giving teachers headaches. Let them know that Jamie is being quiet in class, they'll faint from shock, I assure many people. Lecturers were really nice people, though I have to admit, they were a bore to me. I am simply that kind of person who can't stand lectures, it can be real irritating at times, when something that I know have to repeated all over again. Big assignments coming up almost everyday, so can foretell, a busy time with no mapling or whatsoever. Well guys, thanks to an unknown error, my laptop's Maplestory is not working. I will leave my brother, to help me go in maple to check things out. Misses many people in Maple, like Xiaowei Aiaix3, Han Darlingx3, Yenn Darlingx3, Joey Dearx3 Daph Aiaix3, Xiang Xiangx3,Matt, Zell, Leen deariex3, Ven Ven. XiaoHei AhGongx3, XiGua, Nan Gua. Daddyx3, Daniaox3 and in general, my guildmates in OffLimits and my BLs. Do note that I will be taking a short break this work is over. I also recently downloaded Visual Boy Advance on my labby, but have no time for it! Argh! Well, feelings are getting more and more unstable, am I having depression or what, I am also not sure myself. But definitely, my brain's going to the dump. HELP HELP! Well Ladies and Gentleman, thats it for today. Sayonara.

♥ Introduction to myself ♥

This is my very first post, I shall introduce myself... I am Jamie Soo Jie Min, 18 years old. No.1 gamer, who usually spends her free time in an online world call Maplestory, not to train her characters but to chat, accompany friends, slack and to organize killing maple's boss monsters meetings. I love surfing the net to find out the things I desire to find out and to watch cum listening to online shows and music videos. I really love Japanese Anime, really can't live without it. Love ya Japan! Would want to visit the whole of Japan when I have the resources. I am usually lazy and unmotivated to do things and have to be forced into doing basic things most of the time. Enjoys being with her friends! There’s nothing much about myself, except simply being a lazy, unmotivated and a no-life newbie.